The Price Of Psychiatric Medication

This is an unfortunately difficult thing to write. Just recently, I've been in the hospital, and here I am, once more having health issues — this time of the psychological variety. I don't want to discuss the details, but last Sunday, I had a very intense episode caused by a disorder I suffer from. I subsequently ended up having a discussion with a psychiatrist about a drug I could take to help with my condition, and despite my best judgment, I agreed. Because I guess I just wanted to feel better.

It didn't end well. I went through the agreed-upon 5-day test run for the drug, and it absolutely destroyed me. I spent the last week doing little more than sleeping, unable to do anything because even if I somehow managed to gather the energy to try anything, the suffocating mind fog I was experiencing (and am still experiencing, really, unfortunately) made sure nothing came out of those efforts.

I didn't get anything done; all I did the last week was sleep and grapple with anxiety. And while I'm not going to agree to continue using this drug, there is also no way for me to get this last week back.

And I'm just sorry that it came out that way.